I did not want to be born

It is around 2008 when, right before I woke up, I had a soul memory. Everything was white light. No shapes and just pure white light, a deep knowing. I was walking with someone….and again I just knew, but there was no sounds or shapes/person.

I could “hear” myself say: “I don’t want to go”. The “person” that I was walking with said: “But you have to go”. We walked towards a group of others, again just light. And this is where I saw white light like water that was like a spiral. I again said, while I laid myself in it, “I do not want to go” and the other said: You have to go”. I felt being taken downwards in this spiraling white light and I landed in front of the house I lived in since birth.

I woke up and knew….

I never wanted to be born.