I can still breathe under water

I feel the gentle rocking of the ocean as I am standing in the doorway of my cabin. I am on a ship and in front of me is a photographer. She is taking photos of a woman that is showing off her bright and happy self to the camera. Behind her I see a giant wave of pitch black water rising. I see that she is unaware of the wave that is about to hit her. The wave crashes onto the ship and before I know it I am slammed back into my cabin by the force of the water. Instantly I am fully under water. My last thought was :“ I am still able to breath under water”.

When I woke up I knew exactly what this dream meant.
The ship told me I was to go on a journey. The woman (representing a part of me) posing for the camera had it all together on the outside, that was the image that I showed to the world. She was unaware what was about to happen.

Water symbolizes emotions and the size of the wave and it being pitch black meant that my biggest shadows where about to hit me.
My last thought being under water told me that I would survive what was coming for me as I was able to breath through it.

This was the beginning of my healing journey, starting on January the 13th 2019. Little did I know what was about to enfold.